http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/157/68/1600/river.0.jpg Loza

Loza

Quarter life crisis? Perhaps; It's all being recorded here.

Friday, November 03, 2006

Desirable traits in a man

Personality: Looking for an extrovert, with a well developed sense of humour, and who is not always serious. I like someone who can express themselves emotionally, or at least speak what is on his mind. I prefer leaders over followers, or someone who is equally dominant. I don’t mind if he is very ad hoc, or structured and organized, although spontaneity is more fun. I need a man who is funny and will make me smile and laugh. I dislike someone being serious too often talking about deep issues. I like someone being supportive, being behind regardless of the situation. He will have to be intellectual, in a sense that he can teach me things I don’t know about. I like someone who is honest, and forthright with me. He will tell me how it is. Someone with a carefree attitude is ideal, because I am also easy going myself, and worrying shortens your lifespan. It is important for him to be responsible and can be relied upon. Someone who is talkative to keep the conversation flowing, and who I can talk with until the late hours of the night, and will always have lots to say. Some whom is confident is very appealing as it is just an attractive quality.

Physical characteristics: Shades of brown, or dark coloured hair. I prefer longer hair over shorter hair. Eye colour can be blue, green, hazel, or brown. Just has to have those eyes with a sparkle in them, or eyes that you can stare into for hours because of their colour. Would like him to be no more than 6 years older than me. Borderline 7. And body type. Well he has to be taller than me, and bigger than me. More athletic than fat preferably, or at least toned. Incredibly nice voice. One that you can close your eyes, and just listen to the sound of his voice in your ears. Preferably not hairy on chest, back nor arms.

It’s okay to be picky right? I don’t want to settle for second best.

posted by loza @ 10:39:00 PM 3 comments

Monday, September 18, 2006

Vent #1
I cannot believe that Jamie Oliver is having his show tonight and tomorrow night at the Regent Theatre. Here in MELBOURNE! I had heard he would be doing shows in Oct/Nov. I am so disappointed! If I had bothered checking like a month ago on Ticketek I could have bought tickets for me and my mum. She would have loved to have gone. Same with me. I think he’s a darl. Very disappointed! It’s not likely he’ll be doing another show in a while, especially not in Melbourne. Geez. I’d love to go to his new restaurant Fifteen when it opens.

Vent #2
I was angry at my work mate today. We close at 5:30pm. At 10 to 6, he wanted me to do an interest free application. I told him that I wasn’t going to be doing it because it’s his sale. And then he’s like “You have to do it, you’re the finance girl, DO YOUR JOB” This is in front of the customer too by the way. I’m like “I really think you should be doing it.” “No, you are going to be doing it” It looks very unprofessional and foolish to be arguing in front of a customer, so I sat down and just did it. After just barely beginning the application, I see him with his jacket on and bag on his shoulder, and he’s walking out the door. Oh geez that got me angry. Poor customer got declined anyway, but point is he should’ve stayed. I had words to my boss afterwards. My boss was angry about the situation already, but when I told him exactly what had happened, he was furious. They’re going to have words tomorrow. But, I’m just sick of this work mate and his antics towards me. No respect towards me at all. I haven’t done anything, it’s just the fact that he has no respect towards women. But that shit ain’t on.

posted by loza @ 9:44:00 PM 2 comments

Saturday, September 16, 2006

1.7 Gigahertz processing power my butt. I sometimes think that I can think quicker than my laptop does. I could do half as many things as my laptop could in the same amount of time. Figure out which algorithm you're going to use to decide which process has higher priority and stick to it. Geez. Common sense CPU!

There's an ongoing thought process in my head though. It's kind of in a dead lock state I could say. Keeps waiting for a process to come, but since that process is waiting for another process, everything is in hold mode, and nothing is happening. That is, of course, I am waiting for some guy at work *cough* PD *cough* to commit to something he won't since he doesn't know what that word means, and therefore means, I cannot carry on doing anything else, because I am stuck up in a world where I am waiting for nothing that is ever going to happen.I tell myself constantly, that I don't want him, I don't like him; That he doesn't treat women right, he is a slob, he has no respect for me, hell - he doesn't even acknowledge me anymore, because he is in as awkward a situation as I am.

Everyone has consoled me. I got cornered in a room, to be told that he doesn't like commitment, he is an unhappy sod, who is always sick, because all he does is drink beer every night. I've been told, that I am too good a person to fall into a lifestyle similar to that (ironic that I was drinking a beer being told this), that, I deserve much much better than that, I deserve someone that will treat me right, and someone who won't take advantage of my niceness.

Time to get over him. It definately helped today that he didn't look very good at all. It's so hard, that's all. I tell myself over and over, yes we never even really had anything. I've never really been lucky in love, and I fell hard. So hard, I hit my bottom, and it hurt. For this, I despise him so. If I was evil enough, I wish I could just run him over. But I'm not... Damn my niceness. Damn it a lot.

It's Saturday night. I don't need someone who's number one priority is to watch the Doggies play. Hell, he goes for the Bombers. Geez. And no, it's not important at all that I'm lying in bed writing this at 9:30pm at night. I had a tiring day, and probably too many beers, mixed with one of my mum's lime Breezers (God I hope she never reads this blog). Point is, I am moving on soldier, away from this era of my life. On to something better, as to what... That's yet to be discovered.

Someone also told me at work, that I have to find out what is bothering me so much about myself, before I can expect to love another person. Someone older, and apparently more wiser than me. I don't know what it is. I'm not sure what I am so insecure about. But apparently, her impression from my drunkeness ramblings from last week. Is that I wasn't good enough for PD, and I didn't know what was wrong with me for him not to like me. I think that's just a general insecurity about myself, and lack of confidence. It can't be helped. That's how I've always been. And I like to be a humble person, I hate people who are queen or king dick. It ticks me off slightly.

Well it's time to hit the hay. 40 months interest free anybody? It ends 1st of October.

posted by loza @ 9:47:00 PM 0 comments

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Man, my immune system is horribly CRAP. I am sick again! Right before Elena’s birthday too. But not to worry, I am going to soldier on. *Starts humming Codral jingle* But I’m determined to get better by overdosing on Vitamin C, Vitamin E, and Codral by the weekend!!

Yesterday I found out some interesting facts about myself. Well, more so, my roots. I am like Australian as Australian can get, having all of my grandparents and great grandparents being born in Australia, minus my granny who was born in Scotland. But some of my ancestors came out on a ship called the Northumbria in 1853 to migrate to Australia. I am a FOB! Woo hoo! And most of my other ancestors/relatives live in Tasmania, and Ballarat, so my mum told me not to marry anyone from those areas to be on the safe side from having warped children. It’s just interesting to find out where you come from! And cool thing is, I have a lot of ancestors named Ethel, Etheren, Walter, Florence, Mildred, and Alma. That’s bloody golden!

Hmm what else is new and exciting? Nothing much really. I’m just keeping it on the low down, and being a hermit as of lately. Got a side project I’m working on to help my boss out, and reading a lot of books. It feels like I’m joining my dad with the retirement scheme, excpet… then I have to go to work 5-6 days a week.

On another note, this is the kitty cat that lives in my backyard along with Felix (the other random kitty cat that also lives in my backyard) They’re BFF (best friends forever).

posted by loza @ 11:08:00 AM 1 comments

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Can somebody say shopping spree?

Revlon translucent nail polish - $11.95
Skin Doctors pimple treatment cream - $24.95
Johnsons holiday skin face cream - $9.99
Innoxa buttermilk satin sheen - $23.95
Neutrogena SkinClearing cleanser/mask - $13.99
Dotti black boots - $69.95
Myer green dress - $91.90
Lolitta Juanita singlet top - $65.00
Sportsgirl light blue tunic top - $49.95

Total: $361.63

Oh my gosh, I feel a little guilty on splurging so much. I don’t even need half of the things I purchased. Ahhh I just can’t stop myself. I’m bad, very bad. Well at least I know I’m not going shopping again for a VERY VERY long time!

posted by loza @ 10:37:00 PM 3 comments

Thursday, August 17, 2006

This is the reason why I love customers. A customer came up to me holding up a DV tape for a video camera. She asked me if I had any of the VHS tapes that you could slot the tape in to play it on the television, and explained to me that she had just called up and someone in Electrical said we stocked them, although she couldn’t remember their name. I said, “No we don’t stock them, but I’ll just ask in computers to see if they might have any.” Computers didn’t stock it either, so I come back to the customer, and told her that we didn’t have any of those tapes, but I’d be happy to order one in for her. She cut me off, and started screaming, “No on the phone.. the guy said he had some. I just droveeee all the way here to get it!!” “Sorry, but we don’t stock them, I can order you one in, and it would come in the next few working days.” She slammed the cassette tape she was holding onto the glass cabinet. The tape case broke to pieces. “F*CKING HELL!” She stormed off. I was shell shocked. I hadn’t been that ill treated for a while, I just stood in my place with my mouth gaping wide. I was only trying to help that damn lady. Took me a while to regain my posture, before I called out to her, “Have a nice day”, with a big pleasant smile on my face. Ahh.. retail :)

On another note, good old Harvey Norman Extended Warranty company. I purchased my Canon Ixus V3 (back in 2002) and it was rooted badly, got sent away for repair, they were unable to repair it, so they have now replaced it with a brand spanking new Canon Ixus 60!!! 6.0 megapixels, 2.5” LCD display screen. It’s a bloody sweet deal. People are crazy not to take out an extended warranty.

posted by loza @ 4:45:00 PM 4 comments

Friday, July 28, 2006

*pinched from old xanga, april 22nd, 2006*

"There is no greater sorrow than to recall in misery the time when we were happy - Dante

I always thought that being lonely was a horrible feeling, until I felt the true meaning of it. I guess I better get used to it though, as I know that this is only the beginning.

Why is it true with that saying that the one person that makes you cry, is the one person that can make you stop as well. Not that I'm crying over the situation, I'm just constantly saddened by the thoughts of it. Why am I so unlucky in love. I take things too seriously, and do not go with the flow. Once I have my heart set on somebody, it's hard for me to readjust to the reality that no he doesnt like me, and that I'm going to be single and lonely for ever."

***

Oh my gosh, what on earth? It's like... I read my own mind. That is exactly what I am feeling now.. Over the exact same thing. What is wrong with me? Get a grip, build a bridge. Get over that incredibly attractive, well respectable STUPID male.
GEEEEEZ for Christ's sake Lauren, you.. are BETTER than him (in some way... yet to be known to me) and. it's time for you to GET OVER HIM!!!)


AHHHHHHH!!!!! I HATE YOU P _ _ _ / D _ _ _!!!! Who the hell has two first names for their first names and surname... ... Erh.. yeh.. I need to find something.. ANYTHING wrong with him.. He's perfect in all ways that I can see fit... If only he was an asshole.. then I wouldn't have a problem in hating him.

posted by loza @ 11:21:00 PM 8 comments